September 8, 2006

Speak words of beauty and you will be there

"...what dreams may come
When we have shuffled off this mortal coil"
-The Tragedy of Hamlet, Prince of Denmark (Act 3, Scene 1)

I've been wondering a lot about what it means to stop act towards your dreams instead.

I once told a mentor of mine some ideas and aspirations I had and she was so supportive, I said "yeah, they're Big God dreams". My desires for life require a faith in a Big God... in El Shaddai, in Almighty God, 'cause that the only way it's gonna happen.

It's daunting sometimes when I think about it. What it would mean...because before I was preparing towards working on it. And now I'm at that step where I can stop preparing towards working and I should just start working on seeing my dream come to fruition, and it's terrifying quite frankly. It's at this point that I realize how big it is. How nearly impossible it is....nearly.

That's what moving forward means. It means taking off that "mortal coil" and stepping into your supernatural destiny. It's a's like jumping off a cliff in order to find out if you can fly. For some people the dare is in dreaming at all, and I guess for me...the dare is in "what if"? What if I see this dream become reality? I don't need to dare to dream...I need to dare to live.

And it's just step one really,it's just part one of a three parter. But man, dang if it isn't the hardest part. But...what if I do it? Oh, what dreams may come when I have shuffled off this mortal coil...

Cause it ain't no lie, baby BYE BYE BYE!

Just cause I'm deleting it on facebook and I thought it was funny enough to keep somewhere...hey, if I crack myself up that's enough :)

cause we all need a laugh

3:00pm Wednesday, Sep 6 Edit Note Delete

Hello everyone, just wanted to let y'all know that facebook and I are no longer friends...we tried to make it work but he changed. And my mother always told me that you can't change a man, you have to love him as he is...and I can't do it anymore. First he changed his name from "the facebook" to "facebook". I understood, sometimes we all need something different. In the past he was always in my business, but I knew he was like that coming into the relationship. I could let that go. Next thing you know I find out he is not only monitoring my every move, but telling all my friends via "News Feed"! All of you who know me know that I am exceedingly private, and I thought facebook understood that. Even when he added "status" and "notes" I stood strong, stronger than most women. But this is too much. I am officially demoting our friendship from "friend" to "acquaintence". I will still have my page, but he and I will no longer be corresponding like we used goodness, the memories...I will miss what he used to be.

Just so you know, I've moved on. I've been friends with "blogspot" for awhile. We talked off and on, and where facebook was limited blogspot had my back. Looking back I see that it was a much healthier relationship. He respected my privacy, but was always interested in what I had to say. So now I have decided to invest in this relationship, to see what new levels we reach. I look forward to the future...I hope your prayers will be with me through this transition stage in my life.

September 7, 2006

It's foreign on this side, But it feels like I'm home again

--I've decided to have my titles be from songs...I know, I know... everyone always says I often have a song in my head, you might even find me singing to myself :). But in truth, I so often think of songs that relate to how I feel and what I think's a great idea!!--

So, I have slowly found myself weaning off of facebook. I didn't realize how much I used it. Especially now that I have graduated...It's so hard to keep in touch with everyone when you're miles away.

My xanga blog has seen more posts than this one (which really isn't saying much). But I think this is gonna work out great. I used xanga for the personal, deeper reflections on my everyday life...It's like a diary. But this is great for keeping people up on what's going on in my life: educational reflections, observations from my people watching (or life in general), vacations, family updates... all that good stuff.

I think now that I have decided that facebook is too high-maintenance for me I'm gonna have more time on my hands...and a little more freedom. And isn't that what we all want?